Going into battle alone looks like this first picture. I sat in the room. Bare and cold. I surrendered everything I am into a bag and put on a gown. I sit here alone. Fighting off the feeling to be afraid. I had just seen what I owe seconds before my dad put a small deposit to let me have this surgery that kept me alive.
All I kept seeing was $150,000.
All I kept asking myself was, How?
How am I going to do this?
I can't do this.
I felt defeated, even before going into battle.
Then Daddy walks back into the room.
Daddy says Don't worry hunny. Let's not worry about that just yet. Not yet.
Then proceeds to be silly, make me smile, make me laugh. Play on snapchat with me. Reminding me to be calm, and be silly. Reminding me to continue being me despite what was ahead.
My father showed me exactly what my heavenly father shows me everyday.
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own.
Like I said, Don't go through storms alone. Done isolate yourself. For the moment you become isolated, is the moment you begin to overthink. I am alone, I am overwhelmed, I am not capable of doing this.
Instead, you will feel surrounded with love. You will be reminded to take each moment as they come. You will feel strong, and you will be reminded that you are capable of anything.